Still sucking at life

Tuess

Should be doing my reading for my 10 Am class tomorrow. Its almost 2 AM. Im looking up places to go during reading week- its a week we have no class intended for students to catch up on reading/start projects. Basically everyone takes it as a time to go travel. Here is what im thinking... I will travel the first half of it then go study for the end of the week. There are really cheaps flights to various places in Europe. At first I was thinking of going somewhere like Germany or Prague. But then I reconsidered when my friend Katie suggested Marseille. Some sunshine and beach time would be really nice. Plus I think that Katie isnt the same kind of traveler as me so I wouldnt want to go anywhere super intense. The other people I know are going to Spain and I am going there over winter break so I think that I will just go somewhere with Katie. A place where we can just hardcore chill instead of go to a big city where I would try to drag her around to places. Mmmmm beaches sound so nice right now. I was wanting to go Italy..maybe there. I feel so lucky being able to travel so freely here. I must use it to my greatest advantage. Abi I think is coming in December so is Mat. I want to go places with them as well. Mat and I were thinking Amsterdam. Hellllla druggggs. Not really my thing but who knows. It would be really fun I think to go there and just see all the crazy shit. Still scared to travel alone. I think I will at some point but it just feels that it would be so lonely.

I went out tonight to two pubs. One of them was doing an open mic night. It was possibly the worst open mic I have witnessed in my life. The band we saw was this guy who was old and washed out from his youth. He wore all black and sunglasses, sang horribly and the band was so loud. I kept trying to classify him but just couldnt- it was so off. So he sucked. Additionally There was like all old people there for some reason. Really creepy old people that dont have families and go to bars in New Cross on weekdays. What the fuck. I tried to get one of them who was wearing transition glasses--it was dark--why were they transitioned--- well I was gonna try to get him to buy my drink. Adam demanded I dont make eye contact with him. hahaha. I really wasnt flirting -I just thought it would be funny. My friend had been telling me earlier how to get guys to buy you drinks. I dont have what it takes to get normal people to pay attention to me so why not exploit old creepy men? whatever.

Adam and I get on really well. We actually just make fun of people all the time. His ex-girlfriend is still a bitch. I keep telling him to just talk to her normally. They fight a lot. Though me and Jeff argue lots we have this really weird communication that works really well. I tried telling Adam to be blunt with his ex---like i am with Jeff. he didnt think it was a good idea. why is talking to someone in a roundabout way a better idea?? Well anyways he is a nice friend and he keeps guys away from me so it works. Like the way Daniel cockblocks for Christina--except he is not gay and doesnt whip out his penis to threaten me.
Jeff and I finally decided that we are going to be in a long-distance relationship during my time here. this wasnt my initial plan and scares me. But I think it is worth it. I dont need pointless hook-ups while I am here. This is really tough for me but I think it will be a good test of my patience. Unless Harry Potter comes my way...Or one of the princes...preferably Harry.

I went to Spitalfield Market this past Sunday. It was really nice. There was loads of cool things there. lots of the merchants were selling things that you would find at boutiques. the things were all really unique. Most the people selling things were Asian. I find it odd. Like these little old asian women would be selling these really cute and fashionable things. I feel like they made it. But they themselves still dressed very Asian....I dunno. I imagine they were trained in sweatshops in the homeland...ran away...took their deft stitchery skills with them and moved to London to make a living selling hip things to Europeans. This is just a hunch. I found this woman who makes really cool purses from leather. she makes wallets and some jewelry too. The stuff was really colorful and well designed. I was rather impressed. I forgot her name though. I might look into getting some more of her things.

Weds-
Barely survived class. Had to leave half-way throgh my second one because I was hardcore falling asleep. I still cant get on a regular schedule here. Once again tonight is Club sandwich. I would rather just eat a sandwich. Though I actually have lots of booze on hand I am vowing to not get very drunk tonight. We will see how that goes.
I really want to put up pictures...or rather start taking pictures. I am still working on getting the memory card. Some issues with my delivery address. Its annoying. Soon enough I will put up hella pics for all to enjoy and stop having to use imaginations.

Time to shower power.