Looks like I must really love to recycle....or just get drunk a lot.

we watched a movie called "Paris is Burning" in one of my classes today. Its about trannies and the origin of the Vogue-ing trend among the tranny subculture in the 80's. It just really pissed me off. then we had to talk about gender and shit and I wanted to leave so i could go to my flat and eat hotdogs. I always get pissed off at Gender or Race discussions. Not even going to go into it.


Please excuse my lack of spell check or ability to make coherent statements. Sometimes I write just as I speak- then it might make more sense.

Here is some things about my weekend:

Traveling makes me think so much. Also makes me eat so much. Also makes me want to sleep so much.

What am I getting at...oh okay right...I had such a good weekend, spent in Paris with Gloria. couldnt have been better- it was like the fiend honeymoon 2008. I am not even going to try and describe everything we did and saw etc. going to places and seeing tons of amazing things is that it leaves you overwhelmed and it takes a while to digest it all. Still digesting this one. But i do think that traveling is an experience you really cant share with anyone. you can show pictures or talk about what you did-what you saw. even if you want to share it you cant. so its like a secret you keep with yourself because no one else can understand how everything felt- you can only spark interest for someone else.
We saw JUSTICE on Friday. It was so fucking amazing....me and Gloria discussed this- but no one would really understand- life is ridiculous!!! Lots of fiend action. I even got invited to an AFTER PARTY. woooo. oh wait it was by three black guys outside the club- while i was waiting for glo who was obliviously dancing inside still--typical. they kept suggesting i go to their after party. Apparently wearing a huge t-shirt and leggings makes you look like you want to get gang-banged. I just tried to admire the Arch de Triomphe and hope they would stop offering. Somehow we both survived, the night and the rest of the trip. Paris is cool. Lots to see. Go there for more than a weekend. and don't mistake salad for beouf (beef). ground beef crepe---not so yumster more like a hamburger helper frenchie style.

I keep thinking about this. Since I came to college my life has gotten better and better. sure there are downs but- the highs are higher and the lows are lower- but ultimately it is like things are going up generally- constant climaxxx!!! given the laws of motion i wonder how long can things peak before they either level out or come back down again. like when will i look and say wow thats when things were good. I dont wanna ever stop the climaxxxxxxx.

Glo has all the pics otherwise I would post some from the trip. I want to make an album of us mocking the cultures of places we travel.


Going to Prague in a week. Going to chill so hard and perhaps see some Art Nouveau and Kafka shit. Maybe Vince and Brysons 45 year old Czech roommate could give me some tips. he comes off as very cultured. hahahhaahaaa

Esther confided in me that she has a crush on Adam and wants to bone him. HAHAHAHA. so good watching him be awkward as fuck while she shamelessly comes on to him. life is always amusing.

Slutty Baby

SLUTTY BABY

Halloween Costume idea??
This is a great one. Fabric is having a huge Halloween party- its called nightmare rave or something. I am determined to go this time. Tovah is going....grrrreat.
She was fuckin drunk the other night it was great watching her be a drunken-baby-whore mess.

I was thinking of being an Indian- Native American not Dot. Hmmm or maybe a Ninja. I just wanna make something and not buy it.

Paris next weekend and then Halloween then reading week. I think we are going to go to Trapini in Siciliy. Its their off season so the tickets are really cheap. It may or may not rain the whole time. for a 10 pound ticket its a risk i am willing to take.

I am listening to the final debates right now. I cant believe that the elections are in three weeks. Me and jeff had a heated debate a few days ago over some art history. It was really gay and I just wanted to do that instead of taking my sleeping pills. worked pretty well. jk...kinda


I was wondering about the variety of countries currently in recession. I found a cool website that has an interactive maps. I like pictures so it was really entertaining. Interactive learning--like Leap Frog instead of real books.
Click Here!---then go to the link on the page.

Even London can be boring sometimes. Wednesday and Thursday night were really fun--Today Friday was boring. Another night spent at the Hobgoblin--nearby pub. its becoming like re-runs of Cheers going there. I wanna do mo shit!

Tomorrow:
Laundry
Find Costume
Some dumb birthday party---involving karaoke with Tovah---probs gonna pass.

Still sucking at life

Tuess

Should be doing my reading for my 10 Am class tomorrow. Its almost 2 AM. Im looking up places to go during reading week- its a week we have no class intended for students to catch up on reading/start projects. Basically everyone takes it as a time to go travel. Here is what im thinking... I will travel the first half of it then go study for the end of the week. There are really cheaps flights to various places in Europe. At first I was thinking of going somewhere like Germany or Prague. But then I reconsidered when my friend Katie suggested Marseille. Some sunshine and beach time would be really nice. Plus I think that Katie isnt the same kind of traveler as me so I wouldnt want to go anywhere super intense. The other people I know are going to Spain and I am going there over winter break so I think that I will just go somewhere with Katie. A place where we can just hardcore chill instead of go to a big city where I would try to drag her around to places. Mmmmm beaches sound so nice right now. I was wanting to go Italy..maybe there. I feel so lucky being able to travel so freely here. I must use it to my greatest advantage. Abi I think is coming in December so is Mat. I want to go places with them as well. Mat and I were thinking Amsterdam. Hellllla druggggs. Not really my thing but who knows. It would be really fun I think to go there and just see all the crazy shit. Still scared to travel alone. I think I will at some point but it just feels that it would be so lonely.

I went out tonight to two pubs. One of them was doing an open mic night. It was possibly the worst open mic I have witnessed in my life. The band we saw was this guy who was old and washed out from his youth. He wore all black and sunglasses, sang horribly and the band was so loud. I kept trying to classify him but just couldnt- it was so off. So he sucked. Additionally There was like all old people there for some reason. Really creepy old people that dont have families and go to bars in New Cross on weekdays. What the fuck. I tried to get one of them who was wearing transition glasses--it was dark--why were they transitioned--- well I was gonna try to get him to buy my drink. Adam demanded I dont make eye contact with him. hahaha. I really wasnt flirting -I just thought it would be funny. My friend had been telling me earlier how to get guys to buy you drinks. I dont have what it takes to get normal people to pay attention to me so why not exploit old creepy men? whatever.

Adam and I get on really well. We actually just make fun of people all the time. His ex-girlfriend is still a bitch. I keep telling him to just talk to her normally. They fight a lot. Though me and Jeff argue lots we have this really weird communication that works really well. I tried telling Adam to be blunt with his ex---like i am with Jeff. he didnt think it was a good idea. why is talking to someone in a roundabout way a better idea?? Well anyways he is a nice friend and he keeps guys away from me so it works. Like the way Daniel cockblocks for Christina--except he is not gay and doesnt whip out his penis to threaten me.
Jeff and I finally decided that we are going to be in a long-distance relationship during my time here. this wasnt my initial plan and scares me. But I think it is worth it. I dont need pointless hook-ups while I am here. This is really tough for me but I think it will be a good test of my patience. Unless Harry Potter comes my way...Or one of the princes...preferably Harry.

I went to Spitalfield Market this past Sunday. It was really nice. There was loads of cool things there. lots of the merchants were selling things that you would find at boutiques. the things were all really unique. Most the people selling things were Asian. I find it odd. Like these little old asian women would be selling these really cute and fashionable things. I feel like they made it. But they themselves still dressed very Asian....I dunno. I imagine they were trained in sweatshops in the homeland...ran away...took their deft stitchery skills with them and moved to London to make a living selling hip things to Europeans. This is just a hunch. I found this woman who makes really cool purses from leather. she makes wallets and some jewelry too. The stuff was really colorful and well designed. I was rather impressed. I forgot her name though. I might look into getting some more of her things.

Weds-
Barely survived class. Had to leave half-way throgh my second one because I was hardcore falling asleep. I still cant get on a regular schedule here. Once again tonight is Club sandwich. I would rather just eat a sandwich. Though I actually have lots of booze on hand I am vowing to not get very drunk tonight. We will see how that goes.
I really want to put up pictures...or rather start taking pictures. I am still working on getting the memory card. Some issues with my delivery address. Its annoying. Soon enough I will put up hella pics for all to enjoy and stop having to use imaginations.

Time to shower power.

Life is a mystery..........everyone must....read my blog

Ive been kinda useless this whole week. They make life really simple for the study abroad students. I actually love my classes but kinda wish I had them more often during the week.

This past week has been pretty good. I still havent been able to get into a regular sleeping pattern. I realized it might be because I drink Red Bull almost every night and sleep in till like 3 pm. This wouldnt usually stop me from sleeping. I dunno what it is. probs menopause.

My sister got married last weekend. I didnt really know until my mom was like "you made my cell phone rind during the service".
me: why were you at church on a Saturday?
mom: Mashas wedding ceremony.
me: oooh that. okay cool.

My family is fuckin weird. Anyhow I am actually really happy for her. Hope it works well. I think you only get three tries or something in our church so try to make this one work k Masha?
jk...but seriously dont fuck it up.

Glorias Birthday today! I remembered it was coming up or rather CUMMIN' UP
my stupid phone wont let me call long distance or some shit. I was at this club running around asking people what the area code for Spain is. Also looking for people who looked Spanish. I was waiting to pee in a line-decided that i needed to call glo instead turned to the girl next to me and asked what the area code for Spain was....shes like err I have no idea...then i just turned and walked out. Then I went and asked the Nigerian bouncer if he know...also a no. isn't Africa close to Spain or some shit?
all attempts futile...both made me look retarded. I tried using a bunch of peoples phones as well. I was pissed for not knowing the fucking area code. I just wanted to tell my mayne bitch Happy Birthday. Anyways Gloey Glo I miss you and hope you have a day that is full of hyphy..... or something. Just lookin at old pics. We own . Suck it -------

Paris in a few weeks. Cant wait.

I went to the CSS concert on Weds. It was really great. I managed to navigate London transit while drunk. it was a sucess. I went with this girl Jess. I think I mentioned her. She is really fun but also pretty much crazy. we had fun though. I grabbed some tshirts and cds from the unattended merch booth. it was an Xbox exclusive event. I felt really honored to be there. Thanks xbox. I was disappointed at the lack of Monster energy drinks though.

We had a burlesque themed night at my school. Adam really wanted to go for some reason. Paul ditched him..cause he is an asshole and thinks he is too cool to hang out with us. He is pissing me off already. anyhooo i wasnt going to go out but i felt bad for Adam so I opted to go with him and see how it was.....it was fuckin retarded. apparently people have no notion of what burlesque means. I wont even go into detail of what girls were wearing but it was like either weird ass gothic prom dress type looking things or that frilly underwear over leggings. I didnt know putting underwear over your pants was burlesque. interesting.

I didnt even know it was a dress up thing. Me and Adam were both wearing flannel.
We have been bonding lately. We have deep talks at the end of nights a lot since we both cant sleep. He is really nice and is still in love with his ex girl friend who is American and a total bitch. they did long distance forever and now they are here together and she broke up with him. I was at a bar earlier this week and we saw her being a retard drunk and making out with one guy then grappling to get with another earlier this week. I want to tell Adam, but I will just look like the bitch who wants to ruin relationships. I just really want to get it in his head that she sucks...but its not my place. He is a decent human being and you have to be careful with those kind of people. I compare my long distance relationship to his. I talked to him about being afraid that the same thing will happen if me and Jeff finally get a chance to have a normal relationship without a deadline. It will just go to shit. I dont think that will be the case though. I have been very a-sexual since I have been here. they only thing that has stimulated me so far have been my class lectures. so dont worry Jeff. Harry Potter hasnt swept me off my feet yet.

Tovah still sucks. Next time we celebrate passover thats going to be my Jew name. shes lame and annoying. I have to see her everyday and pretend like I like her. She is essentially the epitome of drunken-baby-whore. She wants to be something sexy for Halloween. I told her to be a sexy baby during dinner earlier this week. She didnt appreciate the idea. I thought it was fitting. She always talks like a baby. drives me nuts. she wont do anything alone. I mean ANYTHING. she begs her friends to do everything with her or else she wont do it. Everytime I hear her do the begging baby voice I want to punch her. But seriously I think a sexy baby would be funny. im laughing now thinking of it.
Im still thinking of something thats mildly offensive and stupid enough to be this year. I need to top the failed Hello Kitty costume from last year.

Last night was Michael Jackson impersonator at this bar/club called amersham arms. Its probs my fav place in New Cross. Its always really fun there and has pretty good music- good DJs. It was really fun last night. My friends left before MJ came on. Got mad at me for not wanting to leave. The impersonation was uncanny. So good. it was a woman but seriously how could it not have been. It was good.I was really glad I stayed. I felt stupid dancing alone and was kind of not very doing well with my dancing skills at this point. All I could think was Rochelle would be screaming and being completely embarrassing right now. I wish she was there. Also I thought of the movie Free Willy cause there was Jacko song in it.
I wish I have taken pics. I then found my way back but first stopped at this pizza place. YUMSTERRRR. I got the drunk munchies to bad. I ate garlic cheese bread and a whole pizza. It was very rewarding. I made it up to Beth for staying at the MJ thing by giving her a piece of pizza when I came back. Pizza forgives all. Beth is the kind of person who is really good friend and doesnt like leaving her friends anyhwere. As most my friends will know if you try to make me go somewhere when im drunk and not ready to go yet its not a fun time. James will know exactly what I mean. belig plus stubborn = def annoying.

I need to do laundry and things of that sort today.
Im reeally thirsty right now.
these are all very confusing things to me right now. I think I need some sleep as well.

Also they played " like a prayer" last night. I was alone at this point and pissed because I couldnt dance alone to something so epic. It really was very heartbreaking. im serious.

I showed my flat mates the bro-rape video on youtube they thought it was hilarious. I was surprised they hadnt seen it. I dont know why I thought this was noteworthy

Sundee-
As usual I cant get anything done that I am supposed to be doing. I have to read for class tomorrow and really want to clean my room. I did pick up hangers off the ground and read a few pages of my reading.

But I have been doing a thorough investigation of the London scene and compiling a scattered list of places I want to go, things I want to see and so on. Todays focus is music. I have been searching all the music venues and seeing which ones have music I would most like. So far I have once again realized that there is much to much going on here. I need to figure out the transportation situation. It scares me. I think I am going to have to start doing things solo. I realized the friends I have hear are great but really not willing to put effort into going to events that I will go out of my way for.

Clubs I want to go to:
Tiger Tiger
Ministry of Sound
Fabric
KoKo
Matter

Concerts want to see:
Simian Mobile Disco
Yacht
Of Montreal
Tilly and the Wall
I dont remember the other things I found.

But I do really want to go to Rough Trade East which looks like an awesome record store. Its in Notting Hill. If you didnt already know this from the Hugh Grant romantic comedy--Notting Hill is a prospering community for artists, hipsters etc. Every city has this type of area... record stores, venues, boutiques, pubs and probs tons of assholes. Anyhow I want to check it out. I think I will venture down there for the Of Montreal release in-store on the 13th.

Venturing solo takes energy. no one is pushing you to go or helping you find your way.
And what if I puke on the subway again.... This should be the least of my worries.

Monday----

So I found out that I won tickets to this CSS concert at KOKO a venue which is in Camden. What I know about Camden is that it has a cool market..and also filled with a bunch of weirdo's. Weirdos as told to me by Adam--Which means they might be cool. I think the whole event is free you just have to reserve tickets or some shit. anyways I have 2 tickets. And I dont even know anyone yet who has the same taste in things that I like. As I was telling Gloria solo FIEND-SHIP is not nearly as good as having a fiend companion with you. If I was in Seattle I doubt it would be any difficulty getting someone to come along to a free CSS show with me. DANCE PARTY FIASCO!!! but looks like it will be SOLO FIASCO. I am determined to make friends with people. Oh wait... I dont know how.

Tues cruise-
Today I didn't have classes and once again wasn't able to sleep at night. i am not happy about this. I usually sleep very well.
For the first time I went to the city center by myself. Whenever I go there I am reminded why I love London so much. Then I come back to New Cross and wonder why I am suddenly a minority.
In New Cross there are at least one of the following things on every single block:
A fried chicken place
A Jamaican fast food place-- on of them right by where I live is called CUMMIN' UP---I am a bit reluctant to eat there or really figure out what the name entails.
A kebab place- They also often serve fried chicken
A pub
An off license- I dont really know what it means by off license but they sell booze till "late" and you can top up your phone and or Oyster Card (travel card). Like a convenient store basically with booze.

This is pretty much what New Cross consists of. Its alright I don't mind it here- but there is defiantly a divide between here and central London.
Anyhow I was really proud of myself for getting downtown on my own. The whole time I was scared I was going the wrong way and would never figure out how to get back. I took the bus -even though it takes longer-I like looking out the window and seeing things around me. I went on a double decker bus!! but I didn't realize it was double decker till I saw people disappearing and realized they were going to the second story.
On the way back this old guy sat next me for part of the ride and had his hand clearly on my leg. I kept awkwardly trying to jerk my leg so he would move his hand. It was rather unpleasant.

But downtown was nice. I went to Marble Arch- I don't know what the deal with it is but it is indeed a large marble arch. I looked at it while I ate a sandwich and then went shopping. Primark as I mentioned previously is the store of DEALZZZZZZ. Except you basically have to fight for the clothes like a hired assassin. Being Russian I was well equipped for the challenge of risking my life for bargains. I really had to make sure I didnt buy a bunch of shit that would go out of fashion faster than I could snatch it off the rack. In the end I got some pants---Jeans for 8 pounds. some socks and other shit. Anyhow anyone that comes to visit while I am in London- I will make come to Primark. Not only is it and urban survival of the fittest type of experience but you can get some cool things if your patient.

Tomorrow I have two classes and then the CSS concert. Hopefully this will bring some good times.

I am missing having girl friends so much. Most the girls I met so far dont impress me. Beth and Jess are so far the only two that I really like. Well Jess is kind of crazy so I am not sure. She is interesting- loves weed and sex. When not doing a combination of either two she is really fun. When I first met her I really did think she was completly fuckin insane though.

Oh that reminds me a retard moment I had. I couldnt find the fitting rooms at Primark and was a bit disorientated. I saw a sign for dressing rooms and walked over where these four girls were in a part of the store that kind of had a small region that sectioned off like a doorway. I thought this was the way to the dressing rooms. In fact I just stood and stared at the girls who were trying on stuff avoiding the dressing rooms. Like I clearly was just standing and looking at them. I thought a door would open for dressing rooms. I mean this in its most literal sense--I looked like a retard. so that was awkward and I found the dressing room line soon after.

Fuck I cant sleep again its 2:30. This is becoming problematic.

I want to get a camera tomorrow. Im determined. Then I can update my profile with totally sweet pics.

I love hearing from everyone and emails are really nice to get. I realize the things I miss about each of my friends every day. Its like there are little parts missing from my life. Except for Christina I dont miss her because I can get drunk with anyone here.
Jk.

I am so proud of Mat and Jess for taking on the Cougar responsibilities of seducing freshmen. It makes me happy. And Daniel for having an internet boyfriend. I was thinking Daniel should have a blog cause his life is the most interesting. I would just really enjoy it.

I realized that the Liz-Christina-Gill residence are all my past roommates since freshman year living in one place. I really want to see their place and compare how much better I was as a roommate.

Awkard Circus

To follow up on the puking situation last night. The puke is still there. But to make life even better
I went downtown today, which was a mistake. I seem to forget how fucking huge this city is. I wasnt even this overwhelmed when in Tokyo. At the crossing with like a billion people I didnt feel flustered at all. I feel like the energy here is insane. And apparently everyone goes shopping on Saturday. There is a store here called Primemark. It is like the Mecca for people who want to be hip but dont have money. So basically cheap ass clothes that were more than likely sewn by the bloody hands of Cambodian youth. but you can look super cute for totally cheap so whateverrrrrrrr.

Anyhow we went in there and I seriously thought I was in Wal-Mart day after thanksgiving. SHIT WAS PACKED!!! I couldnt even move-let alone pick out totally cute outfits.

We left after about 10 seconds. Then we went to Oxford Circus to go to H&M and topshop. Topshop is fuckin huge like 4 levels and tons of pretty nice clothes. Like Urban but better and more expensive. There is tons of shopping here but you have to have the loads of energy and persue the clothing like a bird of prey. Its ridiculous.

One time my dad asked me if I ever got sick of city life. Seeing concrete, sidewalks, bricks, building after building etc. That didn't make sense to me at the time because I never felt that way in Seattle. I love the city. Being in the center of London feels extremely confining. I used to feel that the suburbs in Salt Lake were suffocating. But I had a freedom there that I didnt realize. Since I have been here I felt like I havent taken a breathe. For someone with anxiety issues this is not an uncommon feeling- but it is lingering for longer than I anticipated. for as much as I love the urban setting and often feel liberated in its anonymity, I can see it becoming confining. Always pushing and shoving, running to places, trying not to get pick-pocketed, trying to not get to close to people on a crowded subway, avoiding people trying to hand you things or ask for things. This all takes more energy than I have mental calories for. oddly that question my dad asked me kept runnining through my head all day. I understand why Salt Lake feels better than Minsk- where everyday is a struggle. The constant presence of tons of people is heavier than I ever felt before. I find this odd because I have been to plenty of big cities before. New York, Tokyo, Prague, St. Petersburg, Berlin and so on---but this is the first time I have felt so mentally exhausted from just the movement of everything. Maybe its because I know this isnt just a vacation, there is some feeling of permanence here. I really am already looking forward to being back in Seattle just to regain that feeling of familiarity.



Oh in addition to that on the subway to go shopping I began to feel really hot, and faint. I just wanted to get out!! Then I started feeling sick. I told Kelley I needed to get out or find a bathroom faaaast. as I was swiping my ticket to get out I starting to puke and couldnt hold it. I couldnt even find a trash can. so embarrassing. I went into like a corner by where the guards station was were and puked everywhere!!! my head was spinning and I just wanted to collapse to the ground. I thought the guard would come and get mad at me. He came up and asked me if I was okay then took me to the office where they have a bathroom. I luckily was able to wash off and just sit and get myself together. Then they gave me some water. They were much nicer than I anticipated. apparently it happens all the time. Anyhow I came back out after a minute and started feeling better. especially once I could breathe outside air. I was really embarrassed but Tovah and Kelley were more than nice about it.

This is another instance of me feeling like I have no control and like a complete idiot in a public setting. It seems to be a theme for my time here.

The font color is a more than real description of how I feel today.


NAP TIME!!!!!

Thank you Diamond White

I puked out my window last night....
I cant say why because I have a bathroom in my room which is clearly could have gone to.
I dont even remember why I puked....aside from thinking earlier in the night---I am really surprised I havent puked yet considering the amount of shit I drink/mix. white cider-which tasted like shitty white wine. chugging that clearly did me in. unlike in the dorms back in SU where there are many people below you and people pee-puke-throw any number of things out the window-etc there are only two other people below me. both of whom now have their windowsills covered in puke. I am clearly the culprit. well thats embarrassing. I wonder if anyone will say anything. I wish I could clean it but i really cant. I wonder if they saw me puking on their windowsills. sorry was that rude?

Adventure Parnter

I hate not knowing where things are here!
there is so much shit going on. I need to find an adventure partner. Everyone that I have made friends with here is great and nice...but at the same time not interested in the same things I am. It wouldnt even be a problem if there was not so many things I want to do here. As I mentioned tonight is fabric and I am dying to go. The girl I was going with is sick. I think its actually because she is trying to get away from the guy she was going with. Who knows. Either way I am bummed and trying to find a way to go anyhow. I miss having certain people I know would do something with me. I need to adventure alone. But I am scared that my friends would stop me because they think i would get lost,raped etc.
whateverrr I would totally take the risk.
Maybe I should put out an ad on Craigs list for a partner in adventure. This is clearly a way to net in a majoirty of the London pervert population. so it might not work how i want it to.

There are other shows I want to go to but I have not fucking clue how to get to them.


I watched the vice-pres debates yesterday. Not impressed. Jeff classified me as being a-political. I think politics in the US are really ridiculous. It more of a spectacle than a campaign. Reading the newspaper is just as well as going to perez hilton.com its all gossip, juicy tidbits and finding joy over others mistakes. In the US I know people are going nuts over the election. I must say I am happy that I can briefly tune in when I want and then not listen when I dont want. People here dont have such a stance on politics. They have some interest in US politics but its not the same kind of hyped up mentality over here. I really enjoy that. I cant say I have met anyone our age in the US who doesnt talk about politics on a non entertainment level.

I think our country is fucked either way. I don't really trust Obama because he is basing his campaign off of very vague ideas. Unity, Change etc. could mean a million things. I think its just a way to draw in a large variety of people with a very vague notion. of course unity and change is nice but it is clearly appealing to people for different reasons- ironically not for a unified notion of change, but rather a more particular disjointed notion depending on what the individual wants it to mean. Obama is a trickster if you ask me. and Urban Outfitters selling T-shirts with his face on them makes it further apparent the type of campaign he is leading. Fashion, commodity, image,coolness, celebrity, politics.....its all seems to stem from the same idea...which is why I think its retarded.

anyhow speaking of retarded its 5:30 and I am still in pajamas. time to reevaluate.

Sleeping ills - Sleeping Pills

So my habits of being a complete sloth have not been left in Seattle. In fact in my first week. I only have three days of class and 4 classes. I already missed on of the classes and woke up 20 mins before the one i had today. And I think I am supposed to be at something for my anthro of art one right now. I was supposed to follow this guy after our class but i got distracted and lost. I ended up just going to my room and eating. typicalllll. Although I do have a seminar in half hour. I finally got some sleep thanks to some sleeping pills I get at the grocery. I am trying to make sure that taking them will not become habitual.

I am always sooooo happy to hear from friends back home. Mat I think called me at what was like 6 am my time....for once I was asleep and clearly not for once he was drunk. I miss it.
Jeff tells me all the scoop with everyone as he sees it. So i am seeing everything back in Seattle but through the lens of Jeff. it gets confusing. I was happy to hear from Rochelle who seems to fall of the earth and revisit every once in a while. God I miss all the fiends.

Its like a total dilemma here. Everything is fun and awesome and tons to do. My classes are amazing and I get boners from the readings/ lecture topics on a regular basis. But then I dont have anyone that I am close to here. I dont like leeching on to people or forcing friendships. So I do what I can and try to not be too lonely. I dont know if this feeling is familiar to you but here I often feel that even in a room full of people, even with those I know it i feel rather alone. Sometimes this is very refreshing....other times really depressing. But I have much optimism about it. The alone time I am having was very much needed.

I am very excited for a number of things coming up.
FABRIC on Friday. Freak Nasty AKA: The Dip...Jock Jams anyone?

Going to visit Gloria in october when her group is in Paris via the CHUNELL....Art Boner Weekend
Justice is playing that weekend in paris as well at this club called QUEEN. looks amazing.
Me and Glo are going to fucking own that shit like NAPOLEON!!!!!!!!
and then Also looking forward to Gloria visiting me here in November. Its going to be fucking balls to the wall insane.

We don't have homework in my classes. We just have to do reading and then at the end there is an assessment. no tests just essay. I cant tell if this will be easy or not.

As for tonight I dont have Friday classes and me and some of the American girls are bringing back thirsty thursday!! i need to find some jello...which everyone here thinks means jelly...like jelly for crumpets. god damn. i am not making jelly shots for high tea. its fuggin jello shots to get TAAAAAAAAAAAANKEDDDDD.

okay my sister is reading this and probably crapping her pants. sorry.

okay time for my seminar. Anthropology of Art is cool we get to talk about indigineous people and how their art is silly compared to ours. jk.